Brief Chronicles of my walk with 'NHL'

Brief 'Introduction'

May 2003 - Biopsy and diagnosed with Non Hodgkin Lymphoma, my experience with MY first Bone marrow Aspiration and my FIRST chemotherapy (CHOP).

Oct 2003 - Added another 2 extra session.

Nov 2003 - First round of Chemotherapy (CHOP) ENDED.

Jan 2004 - Tumour grown back to 6x3cm. Not responding to CHOP treatment proceeding to ICE. But amid all these I PASS MY driving Practical on my FIRST TRY!!!

Feb 2004 - 2ND ICE done in hospital. My bone marrow was harvested to standby AND the same month, ICE fail. Tumour was agressive and grown in new site and grown bigger in size 7x5cm.

Mar 2004 - Blood test was done to match with my bro's bone marrow and Yippee we are a match and I checked into the hospital to get ready for stem cell transplant by DROWING my body with all different kind of chemo drugs *MOUTH TAKEN*

Apr 2004 - Stem cell transplant done successfully, put on 7kg in the hospital and recuperation process start ...

Dec 2004 - Went back to work FINALLY!

May 2005 - CT scan done and it came back agressive.

There is a further increase in the anterior mediastinal mass as compared to previous CT. It now measures 61 x 48 mm in maximum diameter

My first Petscan and being referred to Radiotherapy Dept meeting my favourite Doc Michael back and I totally heart how he tell me

"AT THIS STAGE we are still FIGHTING FOR A CURE!"

Jun 2005 - Started the RT session and ended smoothly without any hiccups or side symptons.

2006 to 2007 - After these are all check-ups (initially was quarterly), and as usual there are the blood test, CT Scans and all these caused the anxiety, break downs depressions, FAKES scares, wasted tears (ALOT OF CRYING). It was a really ROLLER coaster that caused alot of emotion and pychological scarring!!

Now I am at a once a year checkup stage, BUT the PENT-up stress for once a year is even WORST! But can't complain much ...

Jul 2008 - Found a spot of 1.3x1.2cm behind my nose from a CT SCAN, suffered through 2 weeks to know that it was Reactive Lymphoid tissue and most people have that and it is more worrisome for me because of my history! DANG!!

Waiting for my next scan in Jun 2009 ...

More to come ... (pictures and more write up with my experience)

Bye bye ~

I am still feeling very uncomfortable to the fact that unknown people or KPO people or People who are just GOSSIP mongers or SELFISH people or IDIOTIC fools are coming back to browse into MY LIFE.

I decide and YET again to take down my travelogue. Nothing 'HAPPENED' to make me change my mind AGAIN. Don't need to start the 'gossiping' session among yourself.

But past experiences with a certain person just make me feel uncomfortable about laying my life out there again because you never know what people are saying BEHIND you.

So I just do it with a group of friends. And I can SHOW IT OFF as and how I like it (they will understand what I meant, I love to see people show off their new buys and their new travels too), I can also BITCH around them, be lovey dovey with YQ AND WITHOUT people judging me.

Because I guess some DUMB asses just don't know things online are being magnify and don't bother to really understand and just start complaining to whoever instead of coming straight to me.

To :

REAL friends who cares whom I lost touch and found me here.
Fighters who want to know more about me, my experience with the Big 'C'.

Email me shanicetan @ gmail dot com

BUT I will update my experience with the Big C to leave it here as a record and hopefully this will motivate people who will be going thru the BIG C or even stem cell transplant to see that there are always Hope in life and if you are strong in your mind. Believe in yourself. Mind over your own body.

Because of that strong will of mine and with the support of my family, my BROTHER stem cell (25% of a match) and YQ's love, I am here today travelling around with him.

To date after the last treatment of my Radiotherapy in Sep 2005, I have been to; Tioman, Redang, Taiwan, Hongkong, Korea, Japan, Batam, Taiwan and NOW I am in United States being a Housewife here.

Now I am heading towards the 4th year Remission. Every year checkup is a breakdown of emotions, fears and stresses. But I am looking forward and counting down to Remission of 5yr.

Will be updating the chronicles soon, come back and check it out ~